Friday, January 7, 2011


The last several days have brought with them many stresses, changes, challenges, etc.

I was just notified by family that my grandfather in Arizona, who suffered a stroke a few weeks ago, has been made comfortable and is surrounded by family, preparing to make his transition from this world to the next.

Earlier this week, I permanently closed down a ministry organization that I started with some close friends. We made an impact, grew quickly, and then it seems over the last few months, watched it slowly come apart. I’m at peace with its passing, and at some level, know it’s the right thing. But I can’t stop wondering…More on that later.

Many other changes have taken place. All of these things calling into question decisions made, and the impact of each of them.

As is usually the case, I have found solace in music. Particularly at this time in a song that I discovered just about the time things became tumultuous.

I’m not sure I’ve ever had a song so perfectly capture my thoughts, fears, stress, and confusion.

By Paul Thorn
From the album “Pimps And Preachers”

Sometimes I wonder how I made it this far
I’ve won some trophies and I wear some ugly scars
Before I go to bed I kneel and pray every night
I wonder if God’s proud of me
I hope I’m doin’ this right

I know lots of people they appear to have it made
I battle with jealously, why can’t I live that way
Maybe they’re just better than me
At playin’ the game of life
Maybe I need to change some things
I hope I’m doin’ this right

The more I learn, the less I know
The more I change, the more I grow
I pray the road I’m travlin’ on
Will lead me to the light
God, I hope I’m doin’ this right

Most of my friends
Are from the wrong side of the track
Here’s why I do not have a problem with that
Hank Williams was in the darkness
When he sang “I Saw the Light”
I believe there’s good in everyone
I hope I’m doin’ this right

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